5 years sober today!!!🎉🎉🎉
I started drinking when I was 14. I instantly loved it, I loved how it numbed😵💫 me so much better than food or playing sports. I even loved feeling like shit the next day & being hung over, it went perfectly with the way I felt about myself💩.
I was very tolerant from the start, I remember drinking 15 beers🍺 & having a blast while my friend who had drank 3 was swimming in her vomit😝. I didn’t know that this would become extremely problematic & how it would become a form of slow suicide☠️
I became addicted right away, drinking every day. By the time I was 19, I was drinking a fifth of Tanqueray everyday🥃. At that point, it didn’t take long before I started having serious health issues. I vomited literally every single night for years yet still drank the next day. If I was too sick to drink the strong stuff I would have 2 40 ou vers of malt liquor instead🤦🏻♀️
By the time I hit 22, I had ulcered my entire digestive system,
vomiting blood throughout the night😳. I finally went to the doctors, not because I was worried for my life but because I could no longer keep the alcohol down.
My stomach was almost perforated, I was told that I had one month to live if I continued drinking the way I did. I cried😭….not because I was dying but because I couldn’t drink. I didn’t want to live in this world but I had a 3 year old daughter that I wasn’t willing to leave here alone. So I stopped for a few months as I took all the prescribed medications.
That didn’t stop me though. After a few months I felt better & realized that I could take the meds & drink at the same time & that’s what I did.
I continued drinking, not as heavily because my stomach couldn’t handle it. I drank 1.5L of white wine instead until I hit the age of 39 & was crippled by fibromyalgia.
That’s when I hit rock bottom & finally got the help I needed to deal with the childhood trauma. It was one of the best things I ever did. I know if I hadn’t done this, I would probably not be here today so…
Overall, I don’t miss drinking one bit🙅🏻♀️ & I’m so grateful that I was given the strength to overcome it🙌🙌🙌