My Shadow

I can be rude🖕, cold & freaking mean. I assume a lot & think I know everything, I think I’m almost always right🤷🏻‍♀️ (cause I am😆). I judge people & I can be extremely condescending🙄. I can have toxic pride all while thinking I’m not enough at the same time🤔

I can get enraged &  go from perfectly fine to 100% out of control in a split second🤬….I’m super defiant, a true rebel✊…it’s how I have survived🤷🏻‍♀️

My shadow loves attention👀, it likes any type of attention weather positive or negative & is known to be a trouble maker to get it🫣

Society tells me I should hide those parts of myself & be ashamed of them🫵. I use to be but now I know better, I don’t listen to those voices, they are toxic🙅🏻‍♀️. The more I try to be just light✨, the stronger my darkness rebels out & grows👺. I realize I’ve been looking at it all wrong…that being just light is not what I should be aiming to be, that’s not how it works🤷🏻‍♀️

The goal is to embrace our shadow🤗, shedding light on our darkest corners so that we can get to know them & love them…so that we can integrate them, find better ways of coping & become whole again & at peace with all our parts❤️‍🩹

Being an attention seeker & trouble maker made me have no problem with speaking out & being a shit disturber😁. My shadow made it easy to deal with all the defamation & negative attention from all the haters, I’ve had a lot of experience with this on the streets, I don’t fear it😏

I’m a terrible listener & always struggled with authority🚔. I never did fit in therefore paid no attention whatsoever to the narrative & it made it easy to voice my opinion🗣, even if the whole world might have been against me…that was all due to my shadow🙏

I love my shadow❤️, I wouldn’t want to get rid of it for anything in the world, it kept me alive & made me who I am today🤗.

I know I need to grow wiser🧘🏻‍♀️ &  learn to integrate it which I’ve been doing and working on…I’m learning to love myself and all my part🥰. Only once I integrate them  will I be able to let my darkness know that it’s safe & that it can rest as my light shines to protect me in more positive ways then what my ego has been doing for all my life💫

Our darkness has a purpose & it’s to protect us when we have no other way to do so. You can’t just erase those parts , that would mean that you are erasing yourself😳. Everything is about balance ⚖️ , and you never know…those dark protective parts may be needed again some day🤔

It’s about loving all your parts & learning to use them accordingly. Most of us didn’t learn this through our parents & we definitely didn’t learn it through school…but it’s never too late to learn…learn to love all of yourself❤️