My Shadow
I can be rudeš, cold & freaking mean. I assume a lot & think I know everything, I think Iām almost always rightš¤·š»āāļø (cause I amš). I judge people & I can be extremely condescendingš. I can have toxic pride all while thinking Iām not enough at the same timeš¤

I can get enraged &Ā go from perfectly fine to 100% out of control in a split secondš¤¬ā¦.Iām super defiant, a true rebelāā¦itās how I have survivedš¤·š»āāļø
My shadow loves attentionš, it likes any type of attention weather positive or negative & is known to be a trouble maker to get itš«£
Society tells me I should hide those parts of myself & be ashamed of themš«µ. I use to be but now I know better, I donāt listen to those voices, they are toxicš š»āāļø. The more I try to be just lightāØ, the stronger my darkness rebels out & growsšŗ. I realize Iāve been looking at it all wrongā¦that being just light is not what I should be aiming to be, thatās not how it worksš¤·š»āāļø
The goal is to embrace our shadowš¤, shedding light on our darkest corners so that we can get to know them & love themā¦so that we can integrate them, find better ways of coping & become whole again & at peace with all our partsā¤ļøāš©¹
Being an attention seeker & trouble maker made me have no problem with speaking out & being a shit disturberš. My shadow made it easy to deal with all the defamation & negative attention from all the haters, Iāve had a lot of experience with this on the streets, I donāt fear itš
Iām a terrible listener & always struggled with authorityš. I never did fit in therefore paid no attention whatsoever to the narrative & it made it easy to voice my opinionš£, even if the whole world might have been against meā¦that was all due to my shadowš
I love my shadowā¤ļø, I wouldnāt want to get rid of it for anything in the world, it kept me alive & made me who I am todayš¤.
I know I need to grow wiserš§š»āāļø &Ā learn to integrate it which Iāve been doing and working onā¦Iām learning to love myself and all my partš„°. Only once I integrate themĀ will I be able to let my darkness know that itās safe & that it can rest as my light shines to protect me in more positive ways then what my ego has been doing for all my lifeš«
Our darkness has a purpose & itās to protect us when we have no other way to do so. You canāt just erase those parts , that would mean that you are erasing yourselfš³. Everything is about balance āļø , and you never knowā¦those dark protective parts may be needed again some dayš¤
Itās about loving all your parts & learning to use them accordingly. Most of us didnāt learn this through our parents & we definitely didnāt learn it through schoolā¦but itās never too late to learnā¦learn to love all of yourselfā¤ļø