To Each It's Own

Getting sober looks different to everyone. There is no proper way to do it, you have to do what works for you & not worry about what others think or say about your way of dealing with it🤷🏻

For some quitting cold turkey is best but for me, it’s a set up for failure😓. So I do things step by step👣, slowly but surely💪. I stopped smoking in 2018 and I was successful for a few years until the plandemic hit, It works for me so this is what I do. First, I downgrade to oil or edible which have a lot less THC & more CBD so I only feel about 20% of the high that I use to feel smoking it. I also can’t puff on oil all day long so I have long stretches of being sober🙂. Usually I take it later in the day. Needless to say that I’m a lot more alert👀, less tempted to hide from the world & a lot more creative✍️. I love all of this❤️ The second thing I do to cope is what I’m so ashamed about😔…I love the whole gesture of smoking weed and sometimes when I take the oil or shatter, I crave doing it so bad🙄…so I take a few puffs of cigarettes😳…I know, so toxic☠️and I hate it so I literally throw most of it away…but although those few puffs are so nasty 🤢, they calm me down & ensure I don’t go buy some weed to smoke. Might sound crazy but it helps🤷🏻‍♀️. I’ve been here before and this is what works for me. I know that soon enough, the oil and the few puffs of cancer sticks🚬 will become more of a nuisance then a benefit. At that point, I’ll drop everything😁…but I’m not there yet. The last time, it took me 8 months of this to be ready & I have no problem with that👍 This time though, I doubt it will be that long before this stops because it’s already annoying me🤔 + sharing it will all of you helps me to break through the shame & somehow breaks the hold these things have on me✊…always so grateful for all of your support❤️ So, the moral of this post is, don’t ever feel bad for what you need to do to get through your addictions, as long as you’re not lying to yourself & not making things worse, you don’t need anyones approval but yours😉 I’m curious, what about all of you, any “weird” things you all did or envision yourself doing in order to get sober?