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When I Use To Rap

TBT to sometime in 1996 when I use to rap with 2 of my best friendsšŸŽ¤. We called ourselves ā€œLyrical Mindsā€ & actually won 2nd place in Montreal’s hip hop contest that yearšŸ‘Š


Looking back at some of my lyrics, I remember being 16 & already ready to die😭

Some of my lyrics went like this:

ā€œWho you think you are, walking around like you’re the big starā­ļø Giving me the looksšŸ‘€, don’t you know I never shook? I’m the crook Naturally born to suffer, they can’t control my anger😔 so I gotta drink that liquor🄃My future is to blame, lost in the maze of the street game, damn can’t handle the painšŸ˜“

Traumatized since the day I realized That life is full of lies & cries when a homie dies😰

Problems getting blown away cause I’m sipping Tanqueray šŸ¾

Wishing somebody loved me enough to raise & teach me🄰

I never understoodšŸ¤”, my parents never took care of me just like they should, got me stranded in the hood I could always suicide but nah still got my pride✊

So what will I do with all the shit I keep inside?šŸ¤•

God if you here me, please let me out of herešŸ™

Cause shit ain’t going good, I could see that my death is nearā€ā˜ ļø


Looking at this today🧐, I know I’m a survivor. I could have died or killed myself so many times since but I fought with everything I had.


Now that I’m working on my healing, I know I need to go back & take care of her😘. We always hear about recovery & parenting our inner child but we also need to do the same for the teenager within.


I call her ā€œSarah Bluntā€ cause that was what my friends called me back then because I use to sell drugs😳. She was cold, angry😤 & in a lot of pain😄 She still shows up in my present life sometimes, when O don’t feel safe or I feel threatened. I’m learning to love her and give her the things she needed back then that she didn’t getā¤ļø...you all should do the sameāœŒļø

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